*Sigh*
That is probably the best way to start off this post.
I have typed 4 different sentences and then erased them. Not sure why its so hard for me to write this post. It seems pretty simple! I started classes on Monday the 13th…. School is not something I am usually hesitant to talk about, since technically I am a HUGE nerd. 
I think I just don’t know where to start because I’m not sure how much I’ve even blogged about school [besides the fact that I went through a minor dilemma with not knowing what I really wanted to do with my life: see here, here, and here] and for some reason I feel like I should be “filling you in” on whats already happened to date…. so let me try to lay it down in a simple paragraph…[as a pre-law student, "simple" and "paragraph" don't generally come up in the same sentence....I have a habit of writing long, never ending sentences to ensure that I have covered all bases....:/]
In September of 2006, I started classes at York University in hopes to work towards my undergraduate honors degree in Political Science. I commuted, so no residence or other people could interfere with my schooling, and also saved thousands of dollars. In 2008/2009 there was a LONG ass strike at my school which you can read about here. Shortly after returning to classes in April of 2009, I got pregnant [May 2009]. I took one semester during my pregnancy [from September - December 2009], which was probably my hardest semester ever, trying to balance work, school and the third trimester of a pregnancy….[writing my last exam I was a month away from my due date. It was kind of hard to concentrate because I was so afraid my water was going to break or that I would go into labour when I was a 45 min drive or 1 hour bus ride away from home :/] While I was pregnant, I was thinking of trying to go back to school during the summer, so that I wouldn’t fall that behind on credits. However, come the time I felt I was ready to jump back into school, registration for summer classes was over. So I decided to enroll for September [which is now.]. It seemed pretty far away, but alas, as most moms know, time FLEW, and suddenly I am here, already a week into classes [that means only 11 left of the semester! OMG!].
I am glad I made the decision not to wait a full year to return. I was worried about leaving the baby and having to worry about childcare and all that jazz [Especially being an AP mom made this a difficult thing to think about 
]….until I remembered that there are actually a vast amount of classes which you can take online!
This semester, I’m taking it easy, and I’m only enrolled in two classes. One is called “Canadian Income Taxation” which sounds pretty boring, but I’m actually pretty interested, as I have done my own tax returns for the past 5 years. AND with the introduction of the new HST tax in Ontario, it will be especially interesting to get up to date on all the new tax laws which will be introduced….blahblahblahblah. I will shut up about this now.
The other course I am taking is called “The Political Economy of Canada”. This is also another class which seems right up my nerd-alley..Right now we are concentrating on the “Economic crash of 2008″ which is really interesting to me, because during this time, I was working in retail, and I saw some of the effects that this crash had first hand on retail sales. I’m starting to work on a paper, which is already due in a month!, and my focus is going to be the automotive industry and its prospects in light of the economic crisis. WOOT WOOT!. [I'm getting side-tracked here, becuase this was not what my original intention was to blog about....] I am more worried about this class because it is a full year course in one semester, which means double the work load in a week [two 3 hour lectures/week]…
BUT, I WILL NOT LET MYSELF FALL BEHIND, NOR WILL I USE BEING A MOM AS AN EXCUSE IF I DO.
I don’t want to pull the “but I’m a Mom card” and try to justify falling behind in any work. If anything, I would have to say that I am more motivated than I have been in the past 3 years, because I have a daughter to look after. Now, more than ever, as sad as it feels sounds, I want to be able to graduate, and get on to getting a career. Although, no matter what, I’m still looking at another at least 4 or 5 years, maybe more. Until my life dream is complete.
I am not going to use being a mom as an excuse to NOT finish my life goals. Ever since I was so young, I have always had a certain picture of how my life would go. I did want to have kids and be married by 25. [so I was 2 years early on that one...], but alongside the whole family thing, I have always wanted to apply to graduate school and law school, and hopefully one day be able to finish my doctorate. Its the only way I see my undergraduate degree being worth anything. Besides mundane government work….there is not much that I can do with my degree. Even if I wanted to work in parliament or etc., it would still be preffered that I have a Masters degree. :/ Soooo, thats what I am going to do.
Some people might think that it will be hard. Some have even laughed in my face when I told them I still want to go to law school. But I think being a mom gives you a sense of discipline that you don’t have being a regular student. I know that work and motherhood will be hard to balance…but as long as I have support from those around me and closest to me [which I do, 100%] then it shouldn’t be hard.
When I was a student I would struggle to stay awake until 3 am, and then try to wake in the morning at 8 or 9. Now its just life. Being a mom has made me more capable of pulling all nighters, which is a benefit to any student. Especially a student-mom.
As of now, I want to try to keep Mon, Wednesdays, and Saturdays as exclusively school/taking care of baby days….and keep Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays and every other Sunday as play-days, cleaning days, blogging and extensive twittering days, or whatever else mom duties come up.
*Sigh*
I hope its as easy as it sounds!
Until next time,
R. Xoxo
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